The work “Family” can be a lot of different things to different people… To me it has always represented those I love. Tonight I believe that group of people has grown.
My cousin P, who by the way is awesome, made a Facebook event. One night he just decided that it’s been TOOOO long and we should all get together. I must admit when I first saw this, my anxiety sky rocketed… I hadn’t seen these people in over 15 years, they are virtual strangers, and I’m supposed to love them or something because we share genetics. But the more I thought about it, the more I remembered how awesome they were when we were all kids, I remembered playing with them at my grandma’s house and missing them when we had to say goodbye. So I swallowed my anxiety and told it to eff off, ordered a strawberry daiquiri to help with the nerves and I sat and waited for them to arrive.
I am SO glad I went! Most of us all showed up, and I hope we do it again soon. I genuinely liked everyone and felt at ease with them. I didn’t expect that. I spent a few hours with them, but already I feel like they are once again part of MY family, by more than just mere genetics. I truly hope tonight was the start of many more nights of greatness! I now also know that my original plan of a small wedding probably won’t happen as I know too many awesome people now 😛
Anyway, I’m doing my best to stay on top of my depression and I’ve been doing good I think. I just made it through 2 really stressful weeks, and I never one resorted to binge eating or had a panic attack. Maybe.. just maybe.. I’m actually getting better 🙂
Hope everything is going great in your neck of the woods.