Tag «Binge»

Brain Dump

As an artist, I feel this need to create. It’s pretty strong, and I’m constantly inspired or feel the urge to tackle one of my 1000000000’s of ideas. The problem is my ol’ pal anxiety freaks whenever I start because OMG Shannon you’ve worked today, AND did dishes.. shit girl that’s just way too much, …

Healthy Food Block…

Hey Folks! Ok… quick note.. I DO have a post-wedding recap coming, but want to wait until our professional pictures are in, and all the guests pics are in, so I can add some to the post.. but it IS coming, I swear… Hell, I’ll even pinky promise! I just didn’t want to annoy people …

Wanna Binge… Will not Binge

Honesty time? I’ve been doing really well lately, so of course just as I thought maybe I was normal, my brain would turn into a “C” word. I’m not sure what brought on the urge, I wasn’t hungry, or sad, or stressed out or angry… I just really, really REALLY wanted to eat… everything. It’s …

Post Eval Update

So life is a little crazy at the mo’ and as a result this post is way late in the posting… BUT it’s been for the best reasons ever! Little V and Monkey are both 1 (well almost.. Monkey man’s bday bash is this Sat) I’ve got some serious ants in my pants cause I …

PANIC and there is no disco

I recently had phase 1 of an evaluation at the Royal Ottawa. Phase 2 comes in August…. From there, who knows where I’ll end up or what course of treatment my doc will think is best… right now I don’t even know what I have for certain. Here’s what I know: I know that just …

My struggle

There’s no use in my wishing I had a normal brain… I don’t. After this most recent episode, I think it’s about time I stop pretending that I can just go off my meds and be OK. I felt fine because I was ON my meds…. Sometimes I’m an idiot. For the past few weeks …

Eff you Stress

So… as we’ve all established already, my body is the epitome of evil 😉 OK maybe not, but I’m PMS’ing (Yep I can admit it), and it’s making me overly emotional… also I’ve been under a lot of stress, and that too has been adding to the roller coaster that I currently feel as though …

On the other side

It’s been a few weeks now since I had my last group session at the Ottawa Weight management clinic. The reasons I haven’t blogged in all of this time, is that I wanted to take some time to reflect, really let it sink in, simmer around, percolate so to speak. My time with them has …

The day my brain broke

So, if you have me on FB… or follow this blog.. you may have noticed some anxiety filled posts and/or frantic emails/texts asking for hugs… My brain kind of… well broke this week. I’d like to follow that statement by adding in, I knew even while it was happening that it was just a stumbling …

Food is Hard

You know what was easy? 4 shakes a day… that shizz was easy compared to what I’m doing now. Food is hard man. Maybe it’s harder for me because of the binge eating disorder hanging over my head every moment of the day waiting for the opportunity to have me slip off the wagon… or …