Tag «pain»

Pre-Wedding Anxiety

Let me start this by saying, I am not having anxiety about my marriage… I am having anxiety about my wedding. That is a very strong and clear distinction I feel is necessary to state right off the bat. I love M, he is the ONLY person that I have ever felt this way about. …

Binge Eating and Me

Full disclosure? I am afraid of tomorrow, scared of what will happen, of what I am about to face, of admitting things I haven’t even had the guts to write on here yet. This is even more scary than me admitting and going through the process of a mental health exam at the Royal Ottawa. …

I have the dress!!!

OK… So I have the dress… like THE dress.. ya know, the one I’ll wear while walking down the aisle to marry the love of my life? Yeah, that one.. HELLS YES! With that said, obviously there are highs and lows, because when aren’t there highs and lows in life.. The high part being dayum …

PANIC and there is no disco

I recently had phase 1 of an evaluation at the Royal Ottawa. Phase 2 comes in August…. From there, who knows where I’ll end up or what course of treatment my doc will think is best… right now I don’t even know what I have for certain. Here’s what I know: I know that just …

My struggle

There’s no use in my wishing I had a normal brain… I don’t. After this most recent episode, I think it’s about time I stop pretending that I can just go off my meds and be OK. I felt fine because I was ON my meds…. Sometimes I’m an idiot. For the past few weeks …

The day my brain broke

So, if you have me on FB… or follow this blog.. you may have noticed some anxiety filled posts and/or frantic emails/texts asking for hugs… My brain kind of… well broke this week. I’d like to follow that statement by adding in, I knew even while it was happening that it was just a stumbling …

Day six

So tomorrow is officially my first full week on program. I have to say that I really am enjoying the shakes… it’s like a constant dessert party in my mouth. With that said though. I miss food… like so much. I miss chewing things. I miss the flavor explosion of nachos and the feeling of …

The Awkward hallway of 3 doors

Being polite is important, it really is… but lately it’s resulted in the massively awkward moments from the Hallway of 3 doors. *sigh* I can see you don’t live in my brain, so I should probably explain. You see, I work in a rather large building… at one point during the long walk from my …

Toe Tails 2

I’m writing you 2 weeks post surgery, this is the 1st day of my third week post surgery…. How am I doing? Well I’m fairly certain at this point that while the doctor was a vile monster… he also broke my toe. What else could explain the fact that nearly 3 weeks after surgery I …

The Laundry List

So my physical is tomorrow. This comes complete with the shame over how I haven’t lost or have gained since my last appointment, despite my best efforts otherwise… the knowledge that I probably could have done more, A LOT more, but haven’t been able to find the strength / motivation to stick with it, and …