Tag «Rant»

Brain Dump

As an artist, I feel this need to create. It’s pretty strong, and I’m constantly inspired or feel the urge to tackle one of my 1000000000’s of ideas. The problem is my ol’ pal anxiety freaks whenever I start because OMG Shannon you’ve worked today, AND did dishes.. shit girl that’s just way too much, …

Pre-Wedding Anxiety

Let me start this by saying, I am not having anxiety about my marriage… I am having anxiety about my wedding. That is a very strong and clear distinction I feel is necessary to state right off the bat. I love M, he is the ONLY person that I have ever felt this way about. …

Not even in dreams

So my constant craving of all things edible continues… I’m still going strong, though HOW I don’t know. Last night… or this morning… I slept all day so at some point, I had dreams… Strange and evil dreams whereby all of my friends ate all of my absolute favorite foods – While I cleaned the …

Day six

So tomorrow is officially my first full week on program. I have to say that I really am enjoying the shakes… it’s like a constant dessert party in my mouth. With that said though. I miss food… like so much. I miss chewing things. I miss the flavor explosion of nachos and the feeling of …

Home Alone

Hi! Welcome to my first post in what seems like ages!  I’m home alone right now and taking full advantage by using this time to blog! Yes this probably makes me a geek but I don’t care. I embrace the nerdy side of me 😛 I’ve been overly stressed lately, and this is causing me …

My worst enemy.

I am my own worst enemy.  Even with all this progress I still have that voice in my head telling me to just give up, to let go.. that I can’t do it. Why bother trying if in the end I’ll still be the same fat blob of crap I am today. I am at …

I am Not on a Diet

SO I’d like to put this out there. Yes I am fat.. like REALLY fat.. and yes I know it.. and Yes I’m working on changing that. But in spite of all of that, I am NOT on a diet.  The very word sends chills through my spine.  When I think of diet.. I think …