Well folks… the scary part is over! I put on my big girl panties and attended the first meeting all by myself. I even had to ask someone if the seat was taken (which terrified me and I swear I blushed 50 shades of pink while asking.. but I effing did it y’all!) The people at my table were all SO nice and the dietitian and Behaviorist were so beyond amazing. They totally put me at ease, answered all our questions and basically quelled any worries or anxiety I had brewing inside of me. To say I’m relieved would be an understatement.
I have homework my first night in (Which is AWESOME) and I’ll officially be starting on the shake diet… To be honest, next Tuesday can’t get here soon enough. I’m still pretty sure I’ll hate the shakes (I haven’t found a health shake I’ve liked the taste of yet lol)… but I don’t care. OMG the burden of FOOD will be off of my shoulders for a while, I’ll be able to focus on other things like getting myself better, and I don’t even have the words to express how grateful I am that a program like this exists.
Tonight’s session was mostly just an intro, we got introduced to the workbooks we’ll be using, to each other, to the doctor, we got weighed in, and had our measurements taken and our BMI and all that fun stuff. I have a spreadsheet that I’ll be tracking my progress on and I’m practically giddy right now with relief. It’s actually happening! All this talk, has actually led up to something… AND I haven’t let my anxiety scare me away and procrastinate.
My goal of the week is to focus on making sure I get in my 3 liters of water a day, which I’m still only doing about 1 unless I yell at myself to drink more, and to gradually reduce my portions over the course of this week in order to prepare my belly for the 900 calories a day diet.
All in all I feel like a big floaty feather of awesome right now and I know I’ll it won’t always be roses and sunshine along this journey… but I’m hoping that I’ll be able to look back on these happy blog posts, and read all your amazing comments and lean on my support system and together we’re going to get me healthy again!
Bring on Swim Suit Season!!!! (erm…. OK maybe in a few weeks bring it on LOL)