Thank you… to everyone who read my most recent posts.. which lately have been somewhat ranty and not full of cheer. I know everyone got used to my up beat posts and it probably sucked to expect another kick butt happy post, and read the crap-tastic state of my mind that day LOL.
But today is a NEW day and I am thrilled to announce that I have hit the 35.5 lbs GONE mark.. I officially left the 320’s and am enjoying the 310s (Hopefully for a short time)… pretty soon I’ll be down to the 200’s… Watch out Onederland I see you… and I’m coming for you!
Every mile stone brings me that much closer to a happier healthier me… and I am so grateful to have such amazing people in my life supporting me and loving me, even when I don’t love myself.
As some of you know.. I bought a new dress (Well make that 2 new dresses now because I liked the first so much I bought it in a different colour LOL)… it makes me feel beautiful. It flows and is feminine and it’s the perfect dress for summer. I want to live in that (well.. THOSE) dresses man. So comfy and something I actually feel pretty in. Got to love a good dress eh?
To anyone who may be new and stumbling onto my blog for the first time.. Hello and Welcome! You may remember me from Highschool, as I’ve added a bunch of old HS friends to FB recently… so if you do, and we’ve lost touch… SURPRISE I turned into a blob after High school. I developed an eating disorder, sank into depression, and became scared of the world… thanks to a lot of help along the way… BUT This is not a sad post… Hell no! I’m doing SO much better than I was, even just weeks ago! Every day get’s better… Every day get’s easier… and I know one of these days I’m going to be back to my old self. … OK maybe the skin will not stretch back EXACTLY how it was.. but y’all don’t have to see me naked (Thank GOD) so don’t worry 😉
Actually… speaking of FB and HS and all that fun stuff… I haven’t posted this week because I was having a bit of an ongoing anxiety attack. I was afraid to post a link to my blog… and have people who only know the old me, come here, and judge.. I was nervous… I still am… but speaking to an old friend helped me get over that fear and I think I’m ready to come out of the fat closet to high school… OK SOME of you already know… and if those people talk about me behind my back probably EVERYONE knows… but in my own little world, this is still a huge step. To admit to people who knew me “before”…. that I didn’t turn out to be this perfect version of myself. I didn’t maintain my high school body.. I didn’t become rich or famous, or even get married or have kids… All I have to show for my years post-high school is 190 extra pounds of fat I didn’t have… emotional scars that run WAY too deep… and some pretty wicked awesome cake baking skills. But did you know I also have an amazing BF who has loved me for 6.5 years even though I’ve been a wreck… and friends who have stuck by me even when I felt like I was losing my mind… and family who love me unconditionally.
I also have a Gecko named Gertrude and she’s pretty rad!
Thanks for being Amazeballs and reading my often rambly magical blog of greatness 🙂 Hope you are having a great day!