I have to say… The cravings HAVE gotten better…….. Not all the way better, but I don’t cry when I smell Mikes supper anymore and that’s a start!
I’m doing my best to stay strong…. It feels like it will never end, but with that said, I know it will and I’m scared for it to. (Don’t ya love my brain? Lol)
Right now my mouth and brain are crying for crunchy delicious nachos loaded with veggies and cheese and salsa and non-fat sour cream. But at the same time, I never want to eat again so that I may continue with this progress I’ve been making.
I have NEVER been able to lose weight… I mean hell, I’d bust my balls and be lucky if the scale moved 2 lbs in a month… I’m seeing numbers on the scale that I can’t even remember how long it’s been since I’ve seen them… I’m SO close to the 330’s (by that I mean I’m sitting at about 341 right now)… That is huge considering 2 weeks ago I was 355. It boggles my mind to see the numbers… And it’s insane how much more energy I already have. I wouldn’t go so far as to say I’m out of the woods… I still can’t even maintain my lawn in one shot, and I get dizzy if I push too hard because I’m on the shakes so I have to be careful… But I can walk! Maybe not forever.. But for a little bit I can. I’m still not used to it honestly. I keep expecting the pain to come back and knock me over .. But so far so good!
Anyway, I have to be up early for training.. I just wanted to write a quick post to journal my current feelings. I’m trying my best to capture every moment of this journey.
Thanks for reading and being a big part of why I’m staying strong!